I WATCH YOU FROM A DISTANCE

I keep my mouth shut because words can be promising
I prefer your hate because your love is more harmful
You lashed at me. I held back
I felt the pain as you accused me of being cold
Why would I talk
What was the point


I didn't feel loved more. I just let you think that
My silence was worse than your harsh insults
You always were good at leaving
I watched you go and cried from the inside
I could have stopped you but what was the point


You never were any less than the much you were
I was in so deep I had to escape
I saw your frustration turn to obsession
I knew just how you felt. I didn't want to hurt you any more
You couldn't have done any better because you were the best


From a distance, I watch you happy and am amazed
I see you laugh something I couldn't give 

I was in so deep I had to escape you
From my misery, I wanted you free

Free from the war
Free from the person I was turning you into


Now I know I was right to let you go
Your grass is clear without my mist
Your clouds are white without my rain
Your heart is free without my condemnation
Your spirit is not frail
Your plea for attention was not rebuffed 

Am content to know you are happy 

You deserve to be happy