JUST FOR TONIGHT

The moon brights the place
Dark and cozy
A view of nature
Cold weather a motion for motive
White sheets, blue pillows, silk dress
A time bomb in activation

I gaze deep into your eyes
A mixture of longing and fear
I wish you would do it without thinking twice
Cant restrategize, counted days long enough for this
Stolen fruits always sweet no need to fight the temptation

I  feel the urge as I move closer
You tremple and I can feel it
Undeniable passion binds us
Too much fire within we might burn
We both will regret later lets make it count

Messed up souls form the best bonds
I know you are the best so I game up for you

Witnessed by the galaxy, let's give the stars a show 

You brought us here
I compensate by making the first move 

I know you will not push me back
I can tell you have been waiting for this too 

Brush the fear away
Lock the thoughts
Divert all attention to me
I come prepared for you
I surrender to you 

My guard down 
Just for tonight, am all yours

I SURRENDER

Candle lights bright the room
Dark and cozy
Transparent rooftop to view the stars
Cold weather a motion for motive
White sheets blue pillows silk dress
A time bomb in activation

I gaze deep in your eyes
A mixture of longing and fear
I wish you would do without thinking twice
Cant restartegise I counted days long enough for this
Stolen fruits always sweet no need to fight the temptation

I  feel the urge as I move closer
You tremple and i can feel it
Undeniable passion binds us
Too much fire within we might burn
We both will regret later lets make it count

Messed up souls form the best bonds
I know you are the best so I game up for you

A show for the galaxy, let's give the stars a show
You are worth more than I can give
I take up the compensation role by making the first move

I know you will not push me back
I can tell you have been waiting for this too
Brush the fear away
Lock the thoughts
Divert all attention to me
I come prepared for you
I surrender to you........my guard down just for you
for you.............tonight am all yours

WHY BOTHER? I AM DEAD!!!!

Beautiful orchids blue and purple
Beautiful white lilies
Self colored, bicolored, picotee and striped
Funnel-shaped, tubular,saucer-shaped and bell-shaped flowers,
Lovely scent, erect, nodding and pendent habits,
Gorgeously laying there,
Plenty in form, plenty in number,

Short black dress,
Long black dress,

Black sunglasses, 

Hide away your red puffy eyes,
Black pants and shirts,
In contrast to the flowers,
Mood so dull I want to escape,

Lovely poetry,
Well sung mourning songs,
Well written script,
Am almost falling for it,
Tears just falling, make up dripping 

Sounds so sincere,
Biography falsely written, well said,
Declaration of love, tears of sorrow,
Soil on your hand final goodbye 

Why bother? Really why bother,
You were with me the other day,
You did not tell me half of the things you said on my funeral
I called you the other day for help you ignored me,
You did not have a second to call me
You never gave me flowers on my birthday,
Why place them on my casket?
I cant see their beauty, I cant feel the scent 

You came so far to say goodbye
When you could have come so close to say hallo
You cry so much in sorrow
When you could have laughed so much in the memories
It hurts so much you could have spend more time with me
In reality even if I was not dead you still would have ignored me
Shed your last tear in a weeks time you will have forgotten I existed,
Shed your last tear traitor, I know its all for show,

Today pretend we were close,
Let everyone pity you for losing such a good friend,
Go right ahead use my funeral to gain sympathy
You get this opportunity once a life time
I love it keep promising my family to help them now that am gone
Float in everyone's remorse,

Come on miss a few meals you did loose a good friend after all
I love your hypocrisy it turns me on
Lucky you am dead,  no exposes from me

CARNATION ON MY DOOR

Friday noon, sunny, boring, calm 

A knock on my door takes me off my thoughts 

Are you Faith? These are for you; please sign here 

These must be the most beautiful Carnation

I am not a flower lover; If I were, this would be it 

Maybe the bleeding heart; those are beautiful too  "For the love of my life, Faith"

Am lost in words, any love of my life would know I would rather chocolates 

But here we are, who could the mystery man be?

Him, well him doesn't look like the romantic type 

Heck calling me the love of his life would be him at his most romantic 

Maybe it's the dude from the mat, he seemed romantic but he only knows my gate 

Who even calls me Faith, that name sounds so promising 

I mean anyone who calls me Faith sounds like they can surprise me 

Maybe with simpler flowers like roses or maybe daisies?

Oh right could be that ex boyfriend who flew in from abroad 

Yeah must be him, mr sophisticated 

I once told him my house number 

I spruce up for a quick video call to mr sophisticated 

I always wear make up for our video calls 

He doesn't pick up, he must be busy 

Maybe he is coming to my place

The 10 year long re-union, oh the memories of teenage love 

I make a quick order to Carrefour for a vase 

An hour later it's here,  just as beautiful as the flowers 

Flowers are well set 

I am all dolled up 

Then the magical knock 

I open 

"Hi, my name is Faith, your neighbour, you may have received my package by mistake...."

THE BLUE PILL

He pops the first pill 

The energy of a 25 year old is what he seeks 

He knows he is punching above his weight 

Her captivating youthful beauty convinces him 

He has an ego to elevate 

She has a skill to prove 

She smiles in disgust 

She knows he might as well be her daddy

Not in the tone she calls him daddy 

She waivers her right to feel violated 

She chose to seduce her ancestor 

He has energy to prove 

Forced into flagrant behaviour 

Seeking something of value 

She chose to be devalued to get value 

She lays back with a wonderous mind 

She has to imagine he is George Clooney 

He knows she is sultry 

The blue pill is in action 

Romance is not his style 

Just as he gets in her, his face turns funny 

He complains of chest pain, cold sweat drips 

He falls on top of her, barely breathing 

She knows the next few days will be complicated

MIDNIGHT SUN

The midnight sun strips my mind of it's peace 

I lay awake thinking about the bleak future 

The uncertainties of life fill my soul with anxiety

An eager voice demands I question existence 

Purpose and cycle of life seem so discomforting 

Why are we here?

The ceiling today looks like it did yesterday 

I would use the term useless but it's job to protect me from the midnight sun is accomplished 

Still it would feel more awakening if it answered my question

Why are we here 

Loud mourns from my neighbour alerts the unreasonable part of my brain 

Aaaah, that's his purpose, spending the night pounding 

All the screams the lady had, her desires I hope were fulfilled 

You can't quite be sure, city girls sometimes stroke egos 

I digress, my apologies, where were we?

Purpose? Talent? Something about life and sun 

Oh the ceiling? 

What about the ceiling?

The midnight? Is it 2am or 1am?

My brain sleeps, I guess tonight we proceed

BEHIND THE FREAK

Nature that compels us to be good
Unwritten rules still matter to society
Need to be judged rightly
Hiding the freak behind the descent clothes
Fitting in presence

Photo courtesy of Max Pixel

Behavior that  conceals your intentions
Words that dignify you
Actions of pretense to justify

Fake agreement to black & white conversations

Illusion of normalcy

Behind the thoughts that provoke you
The actions that nobody else knows
The rarity that only your walls see
The secrets that scare you to death
The freedom you feel in solitude
Where you can't be judged
Where the pressure to impress society is non-existent

CHOKE ME

A game of cards gone wrong

A gamble worth the loss

A realisation past the expiry date

A gaze of unfamiliarity

To choke or to leave? 

I stare deep into your eyes

You are lost in the translation

Your desires are tempted

You cannot reconcile the notion

To choke or to leave?

You didn't think you persuaded me to follow you, did you?

I can tell your dark thoughts compete with your good-guy facade

You cannot be seen enjoying violence

My charm is recognizing dark pleasures 

To choke or to leave?

I am sprung; cage me

Jump into abyss

Fulfil my fantasies 

You can't get yourself past the door

You know you want to

I know you are sober

Let's play pretend scary

Grant me a second of euphoria

I release control to you

Show yourself to me

Choke me

Sympathy leaves your heart

I gaze into you; you are consumed 

Find your escape in me

Show yourself to me

Kiss me through it

I want intensity

Choke me